The Work of a Healer & Self-Love Junkie

I think I could just talk about self-love all day, for the rest of my life.  

Just hours and hours on end about loving ourselves, and what it takes, and how it looks, and why it’s the solution to every problem, and why I know for sure it’s the swiftest path to God.  

I promise you, I would get everlasting life just from doing this alone.

But I know I can’t.  There’s something else pulling me.  

A responsibility of a kind, without the obligation piece.  See, I truly feel that once we’ve successfully journeyed a path in this human life, we have a divine responsibility to leave a few clues behind us along that path that those who may be coming behind us can pick up.

Clues that not only collapse the learning curve of that journey, but also help take the fear out, and the despair that may be surrounding all those blessed souls who’s lives, for some reason or other, have called them to walk along the same way.

For me, that path is healing – the body, and the life.  

I know what’s it’s like to receive a scary diagnosis.  A terminal one, even.  For me, that was AIDS and kidney failure.  So, I know what’s it’s like to try and look into your future and see nothing but a quick ending.  I know what’s it’s like to have dreams that the health of your body won’t allow you to manifest.  To be so tired that even saying, “thank you,” seems like more than you can even muster for the day.  I know what it’s like to have doctors, family, friends, pity you, pray for you, but believe whole-heartedly that even in doing so, your days are numbered.  

I know what it’s like to be dying before you’ve ever truly lived.

I also know what it’s like to live inside of a painful life.  To not be happy.  To have more shame about yourself than you have pride, or appreciation, or gratitude.  To have toxic, painful relationships, work that makes you feel imprisoned instead of fulfilled, horror and disappointment when you see yourself in the mirror, low self-esteem, poor body image, no money, and stressful decisions every month as you sit and decide which bills you can pay and which utility you can live without this month because you don’t have enough money to pay them all.

I know what dying while living looks like.  I really, really do.

But I also know what it looks like to heal: your whole life.  Your whole body.  And miraculously so.

I know what it takes to really live while you’re alive, to enjoy the taste of your days, and love the feel of everything that you are.  I know how to start that journey, and to travel it well.

And while I’d truly love to sit back, cook in my kitchen, and chat with friends about Love all day (I do a lot of that, even still), the topic of healing won’t let me rest.

If I never shared what I learned on my journey about how to take your wounded life, or your sick body, and pour love, surrender and the cosmic truth and energy of the soul all over it until it comes out shining, and clean, and deliciously healthy and  alive, I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night.

I know, because for many years I didn’t.  

I didn’t share.  

I didn’t want to talk about healing because I told myself I didn’t want to be “boxed in,” or limited in my teachings, or conversations.  But the deeper truth was I was scared of what people would say, because my perception on the topic is so different than the mainstream conversation, even amongst some spiritual teachers.  See, there’s a whole lot to me, and what I know, and what I’m passionate about.  And previously, I used to fear that healing would overshadow the other parts of me. So I didn’t talk about it much; I pushed it down and covered over it with other conversations.

And I didn’t sleep well because of that suppression .  Or feel well either.

But what I now know is that when we share our stories, and leave clues behind for those sacred travelers who journey our previous path behind us, we become more of the Light. And that Light bans any shadow we could try and cast on ourselves, and the shadows anyone else may try and cast on us.  

Sharing our stories, and the wisdom we gained from healing our wounds is our purpose, and the path to becoming a fuller version of our most Divine, God-Self.

And I’m all about becoming more of me.  And I’m all about having a better relationship with the Light.  

I think that’s what loving ourself really is anyway – becoming more of our most Divine Self, and having a better relationship with the Light.  

The Light outside, and The Light within.

So, yes, I’m a teacher of self-love.  A self-love advocate, if you will.  A love my/yourself junkie, even.  But I’m also a healer.  Not necessarily the type that you go to place the entire possibility of your healing in their hands, but the type you go to when you’re ready to learn how to place your healing in your own hands, and what the healing journey really takes, and why you already absolutely deserve it, in the first place.

I am a healer who gives you the clues that I learned the hard way on how to return your body, your life, your heart back to wellbeing, and wholeness.  And the type that won’t let you forget the divine truth that you are already, always, and in all ways ENOUGH.  A Divine and Cosmic spark of God, wearing jeans and a t-shirt for a little while, who has everything within them already to be worthy, to be loved, to be lovable, to be safe, to be whole, and to create the juicy, delicious life they desire, and deserve.

So, indeed, I can’t sleep anymore until I leave a clue for you to pick up to help you heal.  Because then, you can begin to leave clues behind yourself for those blessed beings who have started to come after you.  

Each one teach one.  Each one remembering we are one.  

And in truth, healing is another act of love, anyway.  For when we begin to heal, we bend ourselves back to Love.  Like the plants who have been battered by the night rains, who in the morning can be found stretching and bending themselves back upward towards the Light, back to their Source.  That’s what I’ve found healing actually is:  the practice/path by which we bend ourselves back to Love, back to Source.

So in a way, that’s all I’ll be still talking about:  Love.  And all the ways we must shower it on ourselves (and others), and bend ourselves back to it when our lives have rained down on us.

Love. 

Healing.  

Bending back.

The work of a healer and self-love junkie.

Much ❤️, Jerome

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Approaching What I Eat from Ease

When I first started my journey of healing from AIDS and kidney failure, I thought the only way I could heal was to monitor what I was eating very closely, you know, the “You are what you eat narrative.”

I followed what all the wellness and healing ‘experts’ said…

"Eat only organic..."
"You must be a vegan..."
"Meat is poison..."
"Eat greens, or die..."
"Only alkaline will heal you..."
Etc.

And I was very militant about it.  And I was seeing small progress in the state of my health.  But the problem was, every week there was a new narrative, a new study claiming some food was bad for you while another was better, and my diet was constantly changing because of it.

One week I could eat grains, but the next week I’d discover grains were bad for your immune system.  I’d be vegan for a few weeks/months, just to hear from the experts that while, ‘yes, vegan is good, but unless you’re eating raw food vegan, it wasn’t doing much good,‘ or then I’d hear, “don’t just eat your greens, juice them; don’t just juice your greens but make sure you’re not eating hybrid greens such as broccoli that don’t fit with natures natural order for your race; it’s not enough to eat organic, you must eat organic AND local or else you’re not getting enough nutrients in the food; and on and on and on.  

Ad nauseum.

Pretty soon, my diet had narrowed and whittled down to hardly anything I felt safe enough to eat to heal, and my entire approach to, and relationship with, food became something stressful, and felt like a complete chore.  

Which was the entire opposite of how I used to feel about food:  I USED TO LOVE IT.   But my fear of being sick had lead me straight into creating another fear for myself:  the fear of eating.  

One night I had a very profound ‘aha’:  I had brought the very energy that caused the diseases in the first place into my journey towards wellness: fear

I had become afraid that unless I ate the EXACT “right” thing, I wouldn’t heal.   

More specifically, I had become afraid that if I didn’t eat the right things, I didn’t deserve to heal.

I knew that fear, in any form, prevented me from healing. That it literally kept my body in fight-or-flight mode, and my immune system suppressed because of it. And I if I was going to truly heal, that I was going to have to release the fears from my mind, so that it could be release from my body.

So I made a decision to shift.  Instead of focusing so hard on what I needed to eat to heal, and being so strict about my diet, I decided to give myself a break.  To be more compassionate with myself around my eating habit.  I let myself eat more of what I loved, relaxed my beliefs around what I believed was “healthy” to eat and what was not, and changed my thinking around my body.  

Instead of thinking my body was this weak vessel that could be thrown off track by the slightest variance in organic or not, local or not, meat or vegetable, I began to view it as a strong, vibrant, divine vessel that was my partner in this life, and could gain the nutrients it needed to thrive and be well from whatever I was currently enjoying on my plate.  

My body stopped being a weak victim in my mind; and became a powerful creator and vessel of wellness, instead.  

This was a huge shift for me in my emotional state: I no longer felt afraid of my food. 

And that’s when the miraculous transformations began to happen.

First, I began to enjoy food again.  I began to truly relish eating and enjoying my meals.  Which lead to me enjoying more of my life again.  I was more at ease in my life, had more joy in it, felt more present in it.  And then, almost out of nowhere, the state of my health began to make dramatic positive leaps.  My test results began to improve, my t-cell count increased higher than doctors had ever seen before in that time-frame, my kidneys began to recover and function better.

It’s as if my body had been waiting all this time, not for the ‘right’ food to heal itself, but for the ‘right’ energy to heal itself.  The energy of trust and relaxation.  The energy of peace and joy.

Although I had been eating a strict alkaline vegan, plant-based diet (the one all the experts had told me to eat to heal) it wasn’t working for me.  And that’s because what we really need to eat to heal ourselves and be well is joy.  Is greater compassion for ourselves.  Is less fear, less stress, and less deprivation, and more trust in the wisdom and power of our bodies.

More gentleness.

More relaxation.

More self-love.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying here that food can’t help you get or stay well.  I believe that food definitely can contribute to better health.  But what I am saying is that once our relationship to our food tips the balance from enjoyment, relaxation, and fulfillment to fear, stress and deprivation, we are not helping our healing or wellness take place.  In fact, we are adding to the energy/vibration in which caused the dis-ease in the first place: fear.

The clue is in the name:  dis-ease.

Am I approaching my relationship with food in the energy of ease or not?  Am I being compassionate or judgmental with food?  Compassionate or judgmental with my body?  Trusting or fearful?  Enjoying or depressed?  Relaxed or stressed?

It’s all about the energy in which I approach it. For my food, and for everything else in my life.

More ease. 

More love. 

More happy plates.

…and healthy bodies.

❤️ , Jerome

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A Meditation to Release Fear

With all that’s going on in the world currently around Corona, there is a lot of fear and worry in our personal and collective energy systems. And getting caught up in this fear can negatively effect the strength of our immune systems, and ultimately make us sick, if held for too long. So to recenter us back in wellbeing, I wanted to lead you through a guided meditation to help release fear from your energy field, and recenter your energy back in wellbeing. This meditation is both healing and transformative yourself, and for the planet. Try it, and see if you don’t feel better by the end.

FYI: I got the Tibetan singing bowl I’m using in this meditation from Shanti Bowl. Check them out if you’d like to purchase one for yourself. I love the audible vibration it emits. ❤️

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Disease As An Indicator that You Are Energetically Malnourished

Along my healing journey from AIDS and kidney failure, I tried many approaches to try and heal myself: diets, alternative therapies, western medical treatments, green juices, detoxes, etc. Anything that I could find. And while many of these things helped, none of them lead to any type of major or miraculous healing. What produced the greatest results in my healing journey was the awareness I received that dis-ease wasn’t an enemy to be fought against or conquered, but an indicator that needed to be paid attention to, instead. When I began to use disease as an indicator, I began to heal. And miraculously so. In this video, I go in depth about why disease is an indicator that we are energetically malnourished, and how to listen to it, so we can discover exactly what we need to heal ourselves, and live well again. I hope this helps. ❤️

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The Top 3 Thought Viruses That Make Us Sick

Last week, I saw a video by Anita Moorjani where she mentioned the term: “thought virus.” And immediately, I deeply resonated with the term, and recognized the principle as it related to my own healing journey from AIDS and kidney failure, and the healing work I’ve done with my clients. So much so, I was inspired to do this video in order to go a bit more in depth about what thought viruses actually are, and why they are so detrimental the the health of our bodies, and the wellbeing of our lives. I also share what the purpose of our life experience is from the soul’s perspective, why not feeling “enough” is so dangerous, and how the law of attraction manifests our reality. Enjoy!

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What I Do As An Intuitive Healer

I’ve been receiving a lot of questions from my social media followers asking me what it is I actually do as an intuitive healer, what a session with me actually entails, and how my work differs from coaching. So I thought I’d answer those questions in a video. Plus, I speak on what healing actually is, why loving ourselves is the key to healing, and why it took me so long for me to embrace the title “healer.” Enjoy! ❤️

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