One of my greatest healing lessons has been that “until I can feel enough without it, the Universe won’t give me what I want.”
It was one of the most healing things I learned, which also took me the longest to understand.–that I wasn’t waiting on my healing, my healing was waiting on me. And it was waiting on me to feel enough and lovable, without it ever having to come.
Feeling enough didn’t come easy for me. As a child, I knew I was gay when I was five years old. And the moment that I realized it, I also realized that in my family, and in my community, gay was not an ok thing to be. Iwas also bigger in size than most of my peers, had a high voice which led me to often be mistaken for a girl, and wasn’t often the subject of desire for the opposite, nor the same sex.Read More
One thing nearly dying taught me about how to really live is this: “Life deeply rewards us when we are living our truth, and being […]Read More
Another year has come for me, and one of the rituals I like to do on my birthday is to look back on the lessons […]Read More
I call the ego, “the wounded child,” for it’s the part of our mind that was conditioned and wounded in childhood, and still remembers the conditioning, and the wounds. As Dr. Robert Holden states, “the ego is the conditioned self,” the part of us that got it’s information about who we are, and what we are capable of, from the world around us (usually from other egos), and wants to regurgitate that information back to us any chance we let it.Read More
The Universe does not always operate on your timing.
More specifically, on the timing your ego mind believes something “should” happen. For the Universe does not operate in the timing of “should,” but in the timing of “can.” And “can happen” is what Divine timing is all about.
Most of us have inherited a manual on “how to be a good person” from our childhood- a list of rules we came to believe we had to follow in order to receive love and approval, and be safe in the world. This manual is usually gifted to us by our parents, and/or the environment we grew up in.Read More